What kristin has to say about our day yesterday

i am lazy and do not want to write this story..since kristin already did i am going to post her blog entry on mine!!

last night wen went to the movies. we had a really really good staff meeting with everyone and a good day at the gatch.

so we headed to this place called city center to eat KFC and go see whatever movie was playing.
the choices are sparse here so usually when an english movie comes we go see it. so at this time "my super hero ex girlfriend was playing". i thought...cool. uma thurma. super heroes. can't be that bad...right?
so we at some yummy KFC and then sat down to watch the movie. we were at the nice ac theater. well we were i think the only females in the theater. it was all young indian guys...in their 20's. most of the theater is empty but there are assigned seats and these guys are assigned right behind us.

i didn't really know what the movie was about but everything, every joke, every character, every line was about sex. and i am not being super righteous or anything.....but it was disturbing.
and i think sitting in india in a theater made it worse. there is a stereo type here about westerners...they have sex all the time with who ever they wish. they are all loose and unmoral. we as western women receive the brunt of this attitude with vatious grabs, swipes, words spoken to us as we live in this city.

so we are watching this movie with these indian guys behind us and they are cussing at the movie and i feel so humliated and embarrassed. so embarassed of my country. so ashamed of what is protrayed about our country. so dirty and ashamed of being a women. i was really embarassed and at some points covered my eyes and tried not to listen to the guys behind me.

it was at this point that sarah leaned over and said, "i feel like we should leave" i said yes. and so we left.
i guess i just don't get it. i see how sex destoies the lives of so many people. i see men everyday who think with their "2nd brain" and because of this they steal the dignity and value of men. they are so consumed with it that i feel like it blinds them.

and then i watch amovie like that and i think, "is it really like that back home? is the attitude that the point of your life and the point of men and women relationship is to sleep with them? i know that i see a dark side of men everyday. i think it just shocked me when i saw it on the big screen and it was acceptable and even supposed to be funny. it made me sad and embarassed more than anything.

i am trying to love the men here. i am actually trying to understand men's struggle with lust. i waver from complete hatred of the men i see around me to tear of cmpassion for the bondage that they are in.
i love when our floor in our flat after we have just swept and swabbed...its clean and you can go barefoot all over the house. i love that sarah's bangla is kicking but now! i love that our meeting at saribari went really well today. i love that instead of getting to go trecking for my 30th birthday i have to go to thailand.